Ante's Story Of Chemical Castrations At The Mental Hospital

Ante, 24, from Croatia tells his story of Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction from antipsychotics administered at the mental hospital. And the other male patients that were chemically castrated alongside him.

My friends, I don't know even how to start my story. Sorry for my bad english. You are all here probably cause of depression, you took that terrible pill and end up with PSSD but my story is different, I got sexual dysfunction because of antipsychotics, risperidone. I was young healthy boy who played football and loved girls,only two important things in my life. And one day my hell started, I got twitches of muscles and eyelid, as time was passing my symptoms were even worse, my legs start to weaken and one day I almost collapsed. I google it and found that might I have multiple sclerosis or even ASL (Stephen Hawking) and I decided to took my own life to end fear and suffering. But I failed and my sister called police and they come to my home and forcefully drive away to mental hospital and they lock me up there. They done some tests like CT of brain and EEG and find nothing so they said that is all in my head and psychological problem, not physical, not some disease like MS and they give me risperdal. By the way, I read all threads in this general forum in two weeks. (RIP Dark) So, I was in biggest mental hospital in Croatia with all kind of lunatics and I was scared. But that is just beginning of this hell. I was in room with 3 guys and all of them were taking antidepressants and told me that they have sexual problems like no erection, etc. So I was scared even more. I was there for 2 months so I had plenty of time and was trying to collect information about drugs that they were giving to us like candy. Can you believe me that 80% of people I talked to had some sexual dysfunction like no erection, loss of libido, desire or retrograde ejaculate. So this is lie or misinformation on this forum that you are tiny tiny number of unlucky people who got this terrible disorder, a PSSD. That happened this year between april 1. and 25. of May. To continue, I came home finding out that I can not feel pleasure, no sperm and so weak erection and when I watched porn, sex was looking like disgusting thing and I was seeing people like things because I had no fucking emotions, . Later on I find all info and read dr. Peter Breggin books on psychiatric drugs and how they work(especially AD and AP). Now I'm in bigger deeper shit than I was before when I thought that I had MS or ALS. I wish Im dead now. So, I stayed in contact with some patients from hospital and one of them told me that SAFFRON TEA helped him to regain libido and to maintain erection . Poor guy almost killed himself because of this months ago. He was on Zyprexa and Zoloft. Maybe it will help us, I asked local herbalist and he said that saffron tea is excellent for eyesight and for erectile dysfunction, also working acts as aphrodisiac. Even on youtube I find it is good for PSSD. There is saffron capsule also to buy. I researched a lot last 3 months I found out that there is not only problems with hormone and neurotransmitters but with shrinkage of the brain studied with MRI. DR Peter Breggin also talked about that. we are in deep shit if some cells, or receptors just died. When you cut hand of human beings, new one will never grow in future. I think we are in that kind of problem. Maybe this tea will work, just suggesting I'm no expert. In the end is terrible to know that we are living in world where Eli Lily, Johnson and Johnson and Janssen make billions dollars based on human health and life and destroying them. It is not only about PSSD , it is diabetes, short life span, addiction to drugs, even more depression after discontinuation, rapidly decreasing sperm count and so on. I cant believe how some reasonable human being can defend them and said that problem is genetic or LUCK.



I am touch in some of the guys and we are talking on a regular basis every week. They told me that they have still persistent problem with erection and loss of lust, desire and so on. It is PSSD then. One of the guys quit cold turkey. I told you guys it is not 0.5% of us. Number is much much bigger and some people especially girls, women can not realise this disorder. They think is from depression.